The audition process is one of the hardest things in the life of a performer. We practice, rehearse, sweat and cry over pieces of music and scenes for our 30 seconds to a minute to show a director that we are indeed the best fit for the show. But how can you truly see someones range in 32 bars? How do you see there pain, their joy and their excitement? If you are good enough, you get a call back, which in reality is just another audition because you didn’t get enough time to begin with to show the director you rock. So at this point you have had two auditions, slowly whittling down to a few. Most of the time this is the audition that you put everything into. This is the audition that you cry, laugh, scream, beat your heart open for someone standing four feet away from you. You get this one shot, this one chance to put every thing out there.
After the call back, you wait. Sometimes days or weeks, but you wait. You bite your nails, can’t sleep, stare at your text book trying to study, but really you’re going over that last audition. Was is good enough? Did I give enough of myself? Was that line right? You do blow by blow, analyzing every moment of the call back. Hopefully, the director is nice and does final casting the next day, so you don’t have to wait to long.
But this process we have to go through every time we want to do a show. The waiting for those few moments we can blow the director away. Then wait again. Over my years in the theater I’m learning quiet quickly, that it constitutes practicing everyday for that minute you get in front of a director or competition judges.
Sometimes you get the part. Sometimes you don’t. But at the end of the day, as long as you’ve laid it all on the line, you know you have nothing to be ashamed of.
Just keep telling yourself that. 🙂